Fear of the unknown, camping alone, or night animals? No

Fear of pulling up stakes and moving to a place where I don’t know a soul? No

Fear of being alone? No

Fear of foreign countries where I don’t speak the language? No

Fear of mice or snakes? No

Sometimes I wonder if I am subhuman, with so few fears. Cold, heartless? Then I realize that I feel fear like anyone else, but do not let it immobilize me. Maybe I should, but that is another issue.

I felt fear last night and it confused me. My fear centered around a lovely young woman named Meghan, my son’s fiancée and my future daughter. I always wanted a daughter and Meghan is everything I dreamed about–smart, feisty, sensitive, beautiful, funny. And she loves my son, which places her high on the list of people I love.

Meghan has been struggling for a few months with a mastoid (ear bone) infection that is antibiotic resistant. She had two surgeries and has been on IV antibiotics. Her recovery is up and down lately and I am so worried. So worried. My heart skips a beat. My mind remains unfocused. I want to be there, to offer hugs and prayers in person. I want to be with my son. I fear that I am too far away. All that matters is the people we love.

How will I overcome my fear today? I don’t have much experience with fear. What would I tell someone who came to me for advice? Ahhhhhh-there it is. Seek the source. Seek peace. Seek God.